It occurs to me that problem is me. I look around and no one else seems to be bothered. It stands to reason that the problem is me. Maybe I try too hard. Maybe my goals are unrealistic. Maybe my perception of myself is not in line with reality. I shouldn’t be working this hard. [...]
I spent my Birthday at work for 12 hours. Yeah, I know how to party. I doesn’t really matter. I hate my Birthday. It’s not the getting older, I don’t mind that. I’ve spent most of life wishing that I was old enough to be able to do this or that. It’s just something about [...]
Today is the 25th of January and I’m just now getting around to the first post of the year. I suck. It’s January. Winter. I hate it. Short Gray days. Cold that doesn’t let up. And maybe it’s all in my head, but it seems colder than usual this year. It’s like a stain that [...]
I didn’t notice it at first. It’s subtle and you miss it. A bit of bad luck, a tough break here or there. A Virus, then another. Smart phone breaking. Xbox 360 gets the infamous Red Ring of Death. After a while it sinks in. I’ve the got the tech whammy. Shit is breaking left [...]
I’m tired. The kind of tired that sleeping doesn’t fix. The last two weeks have been long. But that doesn’t seem to matter. Life marches forward, whether I’m ready or not. So I keep marching. One of the real downsides of following the primaries and presidential races in detail for as long as I have [...]
Well this just sucks. No Ravens today. No Ravens tomorrow. The Ravens were scheduled to play the Texans in Houston this weekend. The League moved the game from late Sunday afternoon to Monday night in an attempt to accommodate Hurricane Ike. Apparently Ike doesn’t give a shit about football. He tore through Texas leaving a [...]
I hate my job. I know… who doesn’t? But here’s the rub, I like what I do. I like my job description, I like the projects I’ve been assigned. I even like many of my co-workers. But my peers, the other Network Engineers, they are ruining it for me. Of course, I can’t go around [...]
Yes, one of those days. You know the ones? The kind where nothing really goes right. Nothing goes very wrong, but nothing really goes right. I shouldn’t even complain, there are a lot of people in the world who have it so much worse than me. But I can’t help it… today everything just seemed [...]
… but I think my chi is all fucked up. Or maybe it’s karma. Or maybe it’s just shit. Things aren’t right, but I know that the root of all of it is me. There are some external factors fucking with me, but mostly it’s just me. Nothing seems right. And I can’t fix it. [...]
I do hate January. I hate the short, cold gray days. I hate that everything is dead. It’s a stupid time of year. One of these years, I’m gonna say, fuck it and move somewhere that is warm and bright. Florida, Arizona, Somewhere. I get depressed. I don’t want to, but it seems to be [...]
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