Sometimes I get this feeling that I should blog daily. I suppose this would be easier if my posts didn’t tend to run to 1000 word manifestos. Also, I fear that I probably just say the same things again and again. Just using different words each time. I really shouldn’t give it that much thought. [...]
I’ve had a lot on my mind lately. Enough so that those around me have commented on how distracted I am. They probably believe I am being rude or ignoring them… but that’s not the case. I just have these thoughts swirling in my head and they distract me. If you’ve read this space for [...]
April? It’s really been since April? Wow. I’m not very disciplined with this whole blogging thing, but that comes as no shock to the few of you who have stuck with this on and off again blog. It’s not that I don’t have anything to write about. And I’d be kidding myself if I said [...]
It would be easy to attribute it to one thing or another, but I suspect the reality is more complex than that. January and February are hard on me every year. The long nights. The overcast days. It fills me with despair. A cloud that hangs over me till spring. I’ve often wondered how early [...]
This past week was hellish. I could blame on it work. Or the insomnia. Or perhaps the low grade fever I was running part of the week. And none of that shit helped… But none of that was the problem either. The problem exists in my head. That isn’t to say that the problem isn’t [...]
That is the question that is in my mind, I think. Day and night, just below consciousness the question is there. What I am going to do now? It’s more that just a question of finding something to occupy my time. I realize that the very way I’ve defined myself for the last several years [...]
I friend told me tonight that I have to have faith. I gave him the look that I give people when I believe that they have said something meaningles Knowing that I am a firm nonbeliever, he clarified, it doesn’t have to be faith in a higher power… just faith that things will work out. [...]
I don’t want to paint a picture that is all doom and gloom. I’m not miserable all of the time. It’s just that when things get hard… sometimes they get really hard. When I realized that this is how it was going to be, I was sure that living alone would be the hardest adjustment. [...]
I know. It’s s predictable. Me. Hating Valentine’s Day. But there’s more to it than that. Of course I hate it. I’m a guy. We all hate. (Some of us just aren’t in a position to admit it.) It’s a market driven holiday, designed to make us spend money. It creates an obligation to do [...]
I know that I’ve said on numerous occasions that blogging is dead, but here I am. As imperfect a medium as this is… and it really is… it’s the one I know. And I have a lot of stuff I feel that I need to work out. So here we are. My wife and I [...]
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