It would be easy to attribute it to one thing or another, but I suspect the reality is more complex than that. January and February are hard on me every year. The long nights. The overcast days. It fills me with despair. A cloud that hangs over me till spring. I’ve often wondered how early [...]
This past week was hellish. I could blame on it work. Or the insomnia. Or perhaps the low grade fever I was running part of the week. And none of that shit helped… But none of that was the problem either. The problem exists in my head. That isn’t to say that the problem isn’t [...]
That is the question that is in my mind, I think. Day and night, just below consciousness the question is there. What I am going to do now? It’s more that just a question of finding something to occupy my time. I realize that the very way I’ve defined myself for the last several years [...]
I don’t want to paint a picture that is all doom and gloom. I’m not miserable all of the time. It’s just that when things get hard… sometimes they get really hard. When I realized that this is how it was going to be, I was sure that living alone would be the hardest adjustment. [...]
I spent my Birthday at work for 12 hours. Yeah, I know how to party. I doesn’t really matter. I hate my Birthday. It’s not the getting older, I don’t mind that. I’ve spent most of life wishing that I was old enough to be able to do this or that. It’s just something about [...]
Today is the 25th of January and I’m just now getting around to the first post of the year. I suck. It’s January. Winter. I hate it. Short Gray days. Cold that doesn’t let up. And maybe it’s all in my head, but it seems colder than usual this year. It’s like a stain that [...]
Another year is gone. Blah Blah Blah. I find it hard to get into all of this New Year stuff. It appears to be some bizarre combination of nostalgia and optimism for the future. Nothing has change significantly since last week. A New Year, perhaps, but mostly just another day. But I guess I can’t [...]
I love the weather this time of year. Clear, crisp sunny days. But I can’t enjoy it, the days draw shorter and hint of another dark winter. I know I keep saying it, but I really need to relocate myself to a somewhere without a winter. One of these days it is going to happen. [...]
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